How do you sum up a decade of losing…
and birthing lives?!
Let’s recap! In 2010-2019…
3. God is compassionate – It was a rough year. I cried so many prayers of helplessness, and God always showed me that His “mercies are new every morning.” (Lamentations 3:23)
2. God’s timing is perfect – This past year involved a lot of waiting, enduring physical pain, and anticipation of the future. “He makes all things beautiful in His time.” (Ecclesiastes 3:11) It was a 10 month wait… can you guess?! =)
1. God heals the broken and the broken hearted – I got sooo sick last March. Not being able to breathe was excruciating, both emotionally and physically. But God was with me; I needed to learn to trust in Him. (Psalm 73:26)
Random 3 photos of treasured memories:
Top 3 Personal Stories:
3. To Destroy You is No Loss – a written ‘trailer’ of Ba’s escape.
2. Whoa Baby! 2016 Year in Review – we were inducted into the crazy tribe of parenthood! (this is where ‘meiosis’ comes in. LOL. Read about our baby announcement, it was hilarious!)
1. What Mom Taught Me – mourned the 1yr death anniversary of my mother in law
Top 3 on Family & Food:
Top 3 films/dramas/shows I watched in 2019 (not new films, just ones I watched this year):
3. Mirai, directed by Mamoru Hosoda
2. A Silent Voice, directed by Naoko Yamada
1.See You Yesterday, a performance featuring 2nd generation survivors of the Khmer Rouge genocide, reconciling history through art & acrobatics. It was so many things: powerful, tragic, funny, and healing. Totally recommend it if you ever visit their home stage in Cambodia.
3 books I read in 2019:
“What we carry
defines who we are.
And the effort we make
is our legacy.“
-Finding Chika, by Mitch Albom
3. Snow Flower and the Secret Fan by Lisa See
1. Where the Past Begins: A Writer’s Memoir by Amy Tan
3 cool things I did in 2010-2019:
3. Started sketching again. I have never taken art, so I have no clue what I’m doing, but who cares? Just tryin’ to capture the memories that slip past the camera.
2. Organized a history exhibition for an art museum. Khmer genocide survivors shared their never told stories and photos with us, then we shared them with the community.
1. Dedicated a decade to dance. Although many of my Khmer folk dance students have graduated, moved, or left the troupe, I cherish each moment with each student and pray that “being confident of this, that He [God] who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” – Philippians 1:6
3 random awesome memories:
3. Most embarrassing moment (Spring 2015)
On a trip to Switzerland, we ended up on a really steep hill in a neighborhood, and I had never used that bike before so I didn’t know how to change gears. I had to stand while pedaling, pushing all my weight onto the pedals so it could go up the hill.
Suddenly, I heard a voice. “More power!”
When I looked up, I saw an old man chillin’ on the balcony of his house, raising his fist in the air and cheering me on. “More power!” He shook his fist in the air again, smiling.
I laughed and nearly died of embarrassment of my weak self.
2. Halmoni tearin’ up the dance floor (Spring 2016)
During my sister-in-law’s wedding, her Halmoni (‘Grandma’ in Korean) waved her hands in the air, shook ’em like she just don’t care, and trotted to the beat, her gray hair swinging behind her giddy smile. Watching her dance with joy was so infectious, it pulled everyone else onto the dance floor too.
When I’m old and gray, I hope to dance and encourage others just like her.
3. Special Bonds (Fall 2019)
After singing “Happy Birthday” and taking a bite of cake, my toddler was eager to hold the baby’s hand.
“Do you like strawberries or blueberries?” she asked.
Still swaddled in a daze from delivery, the baby just peered up.
“How come she’s not answering?” my toddler wondered.
“She was just born today and she can’t talk yet. But she recognizes your voice. She knows you are her 姐姐 (Jie Jie), and she is your 妹妹 (Mui Mui).”
“Aww…well, I like strawberries,” she smiled.
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Thus, the biggest highlight of 2019 was the arrival of of our 2nd baby. It’s been a wild ride, livin’ that newborn life while chasing a toddler. But God’s strength is helping me power through these sleepless nights. =)
3 things I hope to do in 2020:
2. Improve my minority language fluency (listen/learn to Cantonese 2x/week AND listen/read/write Khmer daily). My goal is to learn/improve both languages so my daughters can communicate fluently with our families. I want to improve my Spanish and relearn French too, for my patients, but I’m already sleep deprived here, who am I kidding?!
1. Write more. I know, I been slacking! How do you stay diligent with writing/blogging? Help a sistah out!
Thanks for coming along for the ride, and let’s embrace 2020 with courage and conviction. =)